Monsters is me and I

I have become the person my mom warned me about,
The kind of person I swore not to be,
I’ve become the monsters I used to check for under the bed
The same ones that woke me up at night and always appeared in my nightmares,
Yet I keep wondering why I can’t sleep at night.
But how can I when whatever tormented me in childhood,
now takes permanent residence inside me?
No one is safe around me
I’m dangerous to everyone
I’m a threat to those who know m’e
I’m destructive and a burden
My family and friends aren’t safe,
I have to protect them from future harm.
I hope they’ll understand the decision I have made
I hope they realize I loved them too much
To let them suffer at my own hands.
I hope they realize that was the only choice I had,
and the only thing I could do.
My best decision,
To redeem myself of all the things I had done to them
An atonement for all of my sins,
The sins that have always punished me.

~Misfit ~