Suicide Note I

I should be happy that I’m finally leaving
This place that has kept me so much underwater I almost drowned
Why, then, do I have a feeling of dread in my heart?

I should be happy am reducing the burden to mankind
And the responsibilities I’ve always weighed down people with

I love my family and friends alot
Hence I can’t stand their dissappointment
when they see the kind of person I have become
The pain in their eyes would kill me
It’d be worse than what am about to do

I hope they forgive me, for being a failure
For not becoming what they wanted
For letting them down
I hope they forgive me
For this decision I have made

I’m sorry if am not the daughter, sister or friend they had in mind
I only wanted to make them proud
But I’ve definitely failed them
I, now, want to leave

~Dark poet_413 ~