I NEED help

“I NEED help”
One of the vocabulary I can’t get along with,
A gentle tap on my shoulder reminds me of the tea in my hands running cold from my cold thoughts or the chilly morning weather?
‘you okay?’ goes a husky voice
Now I’m not a liar, just a girl with a guilty conscience
I just smiled back
Hoping it works cause I just flossed my teeth the other day so it should work.
Satisfied with my terrible flirting skills I crawl back to my shell and convince myself it’s my messed up mind that needs fixing and not my frozen heart
So I hold on longings that,,,
Maybe the untroubled joy eluding me now will one day melt my insecurities away
Just maybe…
But for now I admire the blue skies, the sunrise, feel the morning breeze
And imagine a home far beyond the sky.

~Imperfections ~