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I spent a long time cultivating my hard ass persona

but that doesn’t mean I am cold and hard

as the person I pretend to be.

People have a version of me wrapped inside their minds

and they expect and want me to behave like it

But it’s okay, because I know that’s how people work

You build an image,

they will want you to behave like the image you’ve built.

and sometimes I’d do that

I looked to it to bolster self image

I used it to deal with my lack of self esteem

I’d do that, sometimes

I did that because I wanted to fill my role,

because I would be nothing if I wasn’t that.

~Misfit~

“I don’t want admiration now, because I don’t want insults on future. I bear with my loneliness now to avoid greater loneliness in the years ahead.”