Head Above Water

God
I want a break
I need to rest from fighting through life non-stop
as if it were a never ending battle.

I’m living outside my head

or is it my mind living outside of me?

I no longer know what is happening to me

and I’m afraid that one day
I’ll get too far outside of myself,
that I won’t be able to find my way back.

I was paddling in the shallow waters,
now, I’m barely keeping my head above water
as my feet struggle to reach the ground

and the truth is,
I feel beyond sad

I feel lost.
empty.
numb.

~Misfit ~