Friends

Choices have consequences
I had chosen them as my friends
knowing too well the difference between us
The social class, education and popularity
I had outdone myself in chasing this as my circle

They were perfect. Socially acceptable
Being friends with them gave me a sick feeling of inadequacy
a feeling of guilt, shame and worthlessness
I was like a thief, sharing the same space with these people of perfection

With them, I always had to blend in the background
making sure not to be seen,
Couldn’t risk being noticed and damaging the reputation
I had to live in fear

I became a shadow of them
Became invisible
but I knew I couldn’t be invisible forever
I couldn’t only live in the shadows so long before they ate at me.

~Misfit ~

“-loneliness is the price we have to pay for being born in this modern era, so full of freedom, independence and our own egoistical selves.”