Illusions

My feelings are screwing with my head,
I know I can’t fight my own feelings
despite how destructive I know they can be
so I melt into your touch and soak into your scent.

I love you and I’m convinced that
no one can love me better than you,
I can’t let go even if you make me sad,
You’re the only person that has ever made me happy

you don’t love me, I know
but that doesn’t faze me,
I’ve found out alot about you
and it has caused me untold pain

You’re not the person I thought I knew
I now know you’re a player. a cheat. a liar.
finding out your truth has hurt
and shattered the illusion I had of you
and though that knowledge hurts me,
I wouldn’t give it up now
not even yo be rid of the pain.

~Misfit ~