I have the last laugh

I realised that you aren’t as happy
As I thought you were
As you thought you’d be
When you pushed me outta your life
And walked out of mine

Am happy to know
You’re as depressed as I am if not more
I don’t care how bad that makes me look
Am just glad am not suffering alone
And your mistakes are catching up with you

Am ecstatic you’re unhappy
Because finally you are going to realize what I was to you
And all I did for you
Putting my life on hold to make yours a success
I ceased to exist so you could live

I broke myself into pieces to mend your broken ones
Laid my life down to uplift yours
Lost my life trying to save yours
And that, even for you, wasn’t enough
I could’ve done better you said, you said

I hope you miss me like hell
And cry when you realize am no longer around
May it hurt and sting all over again
May you cry yourself to sleep,
I hope you stain and soak your pillow with tears
Willling your body to shut down and let you sleep
And that sleep won’t even come

I hope you drown in the pain
I pray it kills you

~Dark_poet 413~